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11 april 2016 marks exactly 3 years since left me my childhood friend, brother and part-time cat Maksik.. he is to me dearer and closer all on this planet, in this and any other universes.. those who have experienced such grief, understand me.. we have lived a long and happy life together.. (i hope he was thinking that too..) we have lived in love and tenderness 22 years.. when we met me was about 3.5-4 years, and he's only 3.5 months, and when he left i was 26.. i'm writing to make you understand, what it is for me - it's my life, he is the sense of this life.. we met him on the bus in july 1990, when we returned from the birthday friends parents.. dad caught a passing empty bus (it was possible).. and when my family and i went to the cabin of the bus, i saw a little fluffy ball, who was sitting next to the driver.. more happy moment in my life was not and won't be.. i'm on my knees begging the parents to take the cat, because the driver should have kicked him in the lurch at the end of his shift, his wife kicked out of the house and ordered to throw a helpless soul.. luckily, the parents agreed.. and i found my friend Maksik.. probably no one except God and Mitya (i called him affectionately, and everything, but he always responded) knows how much i love him, i miss him.. he is everything to me.. 3 years have passed, and the wound not only heals, it just gets wider and wider.. take care of your family - your little friends.. i don't know if he will forgive me someday for what i was unable to help him, as promised.. i don't know, do forgive for what i am not with him.. we wanted to go together.. i'm so sad without him in this world.. a world without him is empty.. i did not need everyone, but my Maksik.. he's my only happiness.. i know that it is almost impossible, but i continue to wait, he will come back.. no one can deny me this. my love, tenderness, warmth only for him.. my friend was, is and will be single forever.. i don't condemn those, who choose warm and continue to give to others, those who this is needy.. but i can't.. Maksik was, is and will remain my only friend.. this is my final and irrevocable decision.. and no one has the right for me to condemn it.. when a mother loses her child, no one offers soon to have a new baby and forget about her past.. share her grief and despair.. so i don`t understand why to my grief treat differently, for me Maksik is like a child.. to me keep asking stupid questions.. mothers their babies waiting for all my life and some of them do not give birth until the end of life and not give right and left all your love.. and their solutions understand and accept.. than i and such i - than we are worse mothers? i feel sorry for all the homeless, poor, abandoned and i try them with something to help.. but that's all i can do for them.. i believe that someday we can be together, not here, somewhere else.. in other universes, galaxies, other worlds, i believe our souls will be together.. faith and memory is the only thing keeping me afloat..

Maksick by weryvallmy dear friend Maksik by weryvall




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weryvall Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2016
please, not write anything here! thanks in advance.. Live Long And Prosper Icon 
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